"Genuine", "Real" are words in the dictionary that describes Authenticity.
A friend and I were talking today about being our authentic selves. We agreed we were at a time in our life were being real and finding our passion was something that is a priority in our lives. It was wonderful meeting and connecting with a kindred spirit.
We were like two kids who found a playmate that wanted to play the same game.
We found joy in our conversation, empathy for each other and those like us.
Support for our ideas and desires, a realization that more is to be revealed.
Enthusiasm is so easy to spark when someone believes in you. Your ideas may be a fantasy, your funds limited, but YOU are you. Undeniably, unequivocally you. A perfectly imperfect human being with a seeds of joy, inspiration, creativity ready to bloom. Amazingly, a small green sprig appears, from its protective covering and bit by bit with TLC it blooms.
Someone believed you could, someone believed you would. Then you believed it too.
Many of us are like cactus, existing in a dry arid dessert without much nourishment yet still bloom beautifully.
Others need more, they are the ones who may have been damaged early in their life and therefore require a bit more care to grow.
So we become a nurturer or the nurtured, sometimes alternating roles with those that come and go in our lives.
We evolve from being survivors into our AUTHENTIC self.
We are no longer worried what people think of us, we know who we are, we believe in ourselves, we learn to re-parent our inner child in a supportive and generous way.
Life is good. We accept the bumps in the road knowing we will get past them.
We understand each day is unpredictable so we embrace the moments and people on our journey in the moment. We live life like each day is our last. We are sensible yet carefree, our life lessons help us to achieve and maintain balance.
Authenticity, is a gift we are given, embrace it.
Keep in mind there are many who don't like authenticity, they are threatened by it, and may try to destroy what they don't understand.
Stand steadfast, serve your dignity, live with integrity, honesty, compassion, be open to all the joyful possibilities that believing in yourself brings to you each day and always remain your authentic self.
Namaste
Fall In Virginia
Visiting Virginia in the fall and the colors so vibrant. I need to leave Florida more often!
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Prosperity Corner
I recently read Clearing The Clutter with Feng Shui and was telling a friend about the book. She did Feng Shui many years ago. She suggested I take something I value and put it in my prosperity corner. Recently I purchased a set of Tingsha Bells an extravagance during a time of austerity. However I intuitively felt it was the right thing. I love clearing the energy in a room with them or just enjoying the sound they produce. The bells were something I valued so I placed them on the table in my prosperity corner of the house.
The following week I got a call regarding a resume I had sent out a few months prior and was offered a job that I accepted. Great pay, good hours and I have the opportunity to help others.
My heart and head reminded me that trusting the direction someone gave me and being willing to open my mind to the possibilities can have its rewards. My negativity can defeat me at times.
Tonight, I was checking my blog to make sure it worked, because sometimes I cant log onto the site and although tired felt the need to write something.
I was amazed once again at the time that passed since I last made a post.
I decided to share briefly about the gift I was given. There is an irony....it is now that I am working, I have little time for blogging. :-)
Balance, not an easy thing for me to find in my life, but tonight I got a little closer to the middle road of life. God bless you all.
Namaste, Shashana
The following week I got a call regarding a resume I had sent out a few months prior and was offered a job that I accepted. Great pay, good hours and I have the opportunity to help others.
My heart and head reminded me that trusting the direction someone gave me and being willing to open my mind to the possibilities can have its rewards. My negativity can defeat me at times.
Tonight, I was checking my blog to make sure it worked, because sometimes I cant log onto the site and although tired felt the need to write something.
I was amazed once again at the time that passed since I last made a post.
I decided to share briefly about the gift I was given. There is an irony....it is now that I am working, I have little time for blogging. :-)
Balance, not an easy thing for me to find in my life, but tonight I got a little closer to the middle road of life. God bless you all.
Namaste, Shashana
Monday, August 22, 2011
Something New
Hi! I have added a playlist of a few of my favorite songs. I set it up as a seperate page so you are free to click on it and listen or just read the post.
Life has been busy, still seeking employment. With not working hardly at all, it seems I would be getting much more accomplished. Days fly by and then its weeks. August is closer to the holidays then June which felt like I was there only yesterday.
I did read a book "Clearing Out The Clutter with Feng Shui" it was an eyeopener and I have spent time letting go and clearing out things that are taking space and robbing me of good energy. My friend Else (http://karunasreflections.blogspot.com)gave so unselfishly of herself to help me organize and let go and motivate me to clear the clutter and bring in new energy. I could not have done it without her support. So if you are planning on doing it, get a buddy that has positive energy and ask her to help and encourage you.
Still much more to do and sometimes I get overwhelmed and then paralyzed about letting things go or selling them. In my head the forever "what if I need it" screams to survive. I read when we THINK we need it, we will. If we THINK we wont need it we won't. Interesting theory, I will let you know if I find it accurate. :-)
Anyway I have spent much of my time today figuring how to put the playlist in this blog. Somehow I messed up the password and could not access my blog. Which if you were a fly on my wall today you would have needed earplugs from the profanity that spewed from my usual angelic mouth. Well on occasion angelic mouth. LOL
It was a catharsis and actually I felt better in the end, since I vented quite a bit of frustration.
It helps to clear out the cobwebs in the patience part of the brain. A good shock to it with impatience can be good for it, don't you think?
I do hope you enjoy my initial selections.
Have a great day all.
Shashana
Life has been busy, still seeking employment. With not working hardly at all, it seems I would be getting much more accomplished. Days fly by and then its weeks. August is closer to the holidays then June which felt like I was there only yesterday.
I did read a book "Clearing Out The Clutter with Feng Shui" it was an eyeopener and I have spent time letting go and clearing out things that are taking space and robbing me of good energy. My friend Else (http://karunasreflections.blogspot.com)gave so unselfishly of herself to help me organize and let go and motivate me to clear the clutter and bring in new energy. I could not have done it without her support. So if you are planning on doing it, get a buddy that has positive energy and ask her to help and encourage you.
Still much more to do and sometimes I get overwhelmed and then paralyzed about letting things go or selling them. In my head the forever "what if I need it" screams to survive. I read when we THINK we need it, we will. If we THINK we wont need it we won't. Interesting theory, I will let you know if I find it accurate. :-)
Anyway I have spent much of my time today figuring how to put the playlist in this blog. Somehow I messed up the password and could not access my blog. Which if you were a fly on my wall today you would have needed earplugs from the profanity that spewed from my usual angelic mouth. Well on occasion angelic mouth. LOL
It was a catharsis and actually I felt better in the end, since I vented quite a bit of frustration.
It helps to clear out the cobwebs in the patience part of the brain. A good shock to it with impatience can be good for it, don't you think?
I do hope you enjoy my initial selections.
Have a great day all.
Shashana
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Serving Your Dignity
A friend many years ago told me to "always serve your dignity". She was referring to a job I had where the boss was abusive to me. When someone treated her disrespectfully she always walked. Even if finances were tenuous she walked. Shock and amazement were often my thoughts watching her make that decision. Funny thing, she always ended up on her feet and with usually something better.
I began to emulate her and found that God doesn't want me to be abused and he will provide something else IF I trust Him.
Now I am older, more scared, less flighty and worry more about finances and finding a job. When you are middle-aged and a bit over weight it is not easy finding employment. Especially with jobs so scarce. So as my one girlfriend always says, "suck it up and just do it" I tried my best.
This last weekend I lost it, and reported my boss to the ethical hotline for our corporation. She admitted she was nitpicking me and going to continue to nit pick at me becasue I was nit picking at the hours. What she defined as nitpicking, I defined as standing up for myself and not being taken advantage of.
Our hours were 11-5:45 with 2 ten minute breaks and half hour for lunch.
She made it impossible for us to take our morning break,and then wanted us to stay late cleaning up without getting paid. She has had many people call and complain about her tactics.
This weekend I left a minute early, (of course the fact I come in ten minutes early and start to work didn't count) I said to her when she confronted me,I was tired of her nitpicking. Her response was I am going to nitpick you because you nitpick about hours. I responded "so this is retaliation?" She denied it. "What is it?" I asked. She didnt answer. A few more words were exchanged and she said she was writing me up and I told her I was writing her up too. I did.
We have an ethics report line at work. I don't know if anything will come of it. I have no hours scheduled and will lose income if she doesn't put me on the calendar to work. However I served my dignity and have my integrity.
The next day I sent out three resumes. I have been trying to get a job since she railroaded my old boss out of her job. I usually don't even get a call back. Yesterday I got two calls and I have an interview the end of the week.
I smiled, as I thought, when I am willing to let go and serve my dignity, good things happen.
I began to emulate her and found that God doesn't want me to be abused and he will provide something else IF I trust Him.
Now I am older, more scared, less flighty and worry more about finances and finding a job. When you are middle-aged and a bit over weight it is not easy finding employment. Especially with jobs so scarce. So as my one girlfriend always says, "suck it up and just do it" I tried my best.
This last weekend I lost it, and reported my boss to the ethical hotline for our corporation. She admitted she was nitpicking me and going to continue to nit pick at me becasue I was nit picking at the hours. What she defined as nitpicking, I defined as standing up for myself and not being taken advantage of.
Our hours were 11-5:45 with 2 ten minute breaks and half hour for lunch.
She made it impossible for us to take our morning break,and then wanted us to stay late cleaning up without getting paid. She has had many people call and complain about her tactics.
This weekend I left a minute early, (of course the fact I come in ten minutes early and start to work didn't count) I said to her when she confronted me,I was tired of her nitpicking. Her response was I am going to nitpick you because you nitpick about hours. I responded "so this is retaliation?" She denied it. "What is it?" I asked. She didnt answer. A few more words were exchanged and she said she was writing me up and I told her I was writing her up too. I did.
We have an ethics report line at work. I don't know if anything will come of it. I have no hours scheduled and will lose income if she doesn't put me on the calendar to work. However I served my dignity and have my integrity.
The next day I sent out three resumes. I have been trying to get a job since she railroaded my old boss out of her job. I usually don't even get a call back. Yesterday I got two calls and I have an interview the end of the week.
I smiled, as I thought, when I am willing to let go and serve my dignity, good things happen.
Hello Again
It has been a while since I wrote something. I have been busy, work, photography, and learning about me and my relationship with God.
Funny how life happens. The old boyfriend who I did not trust was gone. I thought about the boyfriend I had spent several years with and what an honest person he was and I wished he was in my life. A friend suggested I put a specific list of what I wanted in a man in my God box and I did. Except for a few things he fit what I wanted. I heard he was dating someone through a mutual acquaintance. I was not ready to start another relationship. Sometimes OUR plans and Gods are so different.
My son sent me a new phone and I had to re-enter all the numbers. I looked at Ed's number and thought should I put it in. I had heard he had a new girlfriend but knew if I ever needed to talk to him he would listen. So I put the # in my new phone.
I finished at the W's and put the phone down on my desk. I was reading the instructions and I heard a noise. I looked up and the phone was dialing someone, I looked at the name, ED. I tried to shut it off quickly. A few moments later it rang, it was Ed. He asked if I called and I mumbled inadvertently. Awkward pause and then I asked how he was doing. I mentioned I heard he had a new girlfriend. He didnt and wanted to know who told me that. I laughed, I do that often when I am with him.
He had gotten a computer and was learning how to use it. In the past he had done so much for me I jumped at the chance to give back. Thus it began, again.
When you are apart for almost a year you have time to think and reflect. It was like finding a pair of your favorite old slippers in the closet. You forgot how comfortable they were and how good they felt. It was like no time has passed and we comfortably started dating again. Nothing is perfect, there are differences but more importantly there is honesty, caring and mutual respect.
We kid that his momma made that phone ring, she knew how much I cared about him.
I never touched the phone, but I am grateful and happy that the powers that be knew we were a good fit and we could appreciate each other once again.
Funny how life happens. The old boyfriend who I did not trust was gone. I thought about the boyfriend I had spent several years with and what an honest person he was and I wished he was in my life. A friend suggested I put a specific list of what I wanted in a man in my God box and I did. Except for a few things he fit what I wanted. I heard he was dating someone through a mutual acquaintance. I was not ready to start another relationship. Sometimes OUR plans and Gods are so different.
My son sent me a new phone and I had to re-enter all the numbers. I looked at Ed's number and thought should I put it in. I had heard he had a new girlfriend but knew if I ever needed to talk to him he would listen. So I put the # in my new phone.
I finished at the W's and put the phone down on my desk. I was reading the instructions and I heard a noise. I looked up and the phone was dialing someone, I looked at the name, ED. I tried to shut it off quickly. A few moments later it rang, it was Ed. He asked if I called and I mumbled inadvertently. Awkward pause and then I asked how he was doing. I mentioned I heard he had a new girlfriend. He didnt and wanted to know who told me that. I laughed, I do that often when I am with him.
He had gotten a computer and was learning how to use it. In the past he had done so much for me I jumped at the chance to give back. Thus it began, again.
When you are apart for almost a year you have time to think and reflect. It was like finding a pair of your favorite old slippers in the closet. You forgot how comfortable they were and how good they felt. It was like no time has passed and we comfortably started dating again. Nothing is perfect, there are differences but more importantly there is honesty, caring and mutual respect.
We kid that his momma made that phone ring, she knew how much I cared about him.
I never touched the phone, but I am grateful and happy that the powers that be knew we were a good fit and we could appreciate each other once again.
Monday, February 28, 2011
A Leopard Doesn't Change It's Spot's
The title of this blog today is about trusting your instincts and what you know to be true in spite of what your heart wants. Its also about a book that has been an important part of my life for many years.
HOW TO SURVIVE THE LOSS OF A LOVE. Here is a link if you want to order it.
The book has been a wonderful source of comfort over the years during all kinds of losses. Yesterday I picked it up again.
That old boyfriend that returned is now out of the picture. I think somewhere in the book it tells you, one can never go back. Now and again you forget common sense and decide with only your heart. I was feeling really sad yesterday, sad about the loss of phone calls, plans,affection etc. It ended because he lies. I knew this, but he was very convincing that he had changed.
There was a lot of drama that happened before the end, some of it mine, some his, some a third party. The decision was a no brainer. But tell that to the heart or the little girl inside me that was happy to have someone to dance with and feel like prince charming had returned.
Letting go of the dream, is more difficult then letting go of the man. I have friends that encourage me to feel the feelings, the anger, denial, bargaining and ultimately acceptance.
We only dated a month. I thought to myself this grieving feels huge and realized it was about all the losses in my life not just him.
I took the time to smudge the house yesterday and asked for any negative energy to leave and held him in my thoughts for a good life journey.
I read some pages from a meditation book and then picked up my old favorite, How to Survive the Loss of a Love. I felt calm and peaceful.
Today I had some feelings that made me sad, and I picked up the Surviving book and opened to a page. There was a poem
First I have to get out of love with you
Second I have to remember
Dont fall until you see the whites of their lies
I smiled, God was talking to me again, comforting me, validating my decision.
It will take time. This last month, healthy boudaries were set, red flags were recognized, and esteemable acts continued, as I gratefully listened to those that care about me with an open heart.
The passing of the feelings of loss will move quickly. There was not a big investment since I was cautiously optimistic. However, the longing for someone to share my life with was awakened by my relationship and that will be my lesson.
HOW TO SURVIVE THE LOSS OF A LOVE. Here is a link if you want to order it.
The book has been a wonderful source of comfort over the years during all kinds of losses. Yesterday I picked it up again.
That old boyfriend that returned is now out of the picture. I think somewhere in the book it tells you, one can never go back. Now and again you forget common sense and decide with only your heart. I was feeling really sad yesterday, sad about the loss of phone calls, plans,affection etc. It ended because he lies. I knew this, but he was very convincing that he had changed.
There was a lot of drama that happened before the end, some of it mine, some his, some a third party. The decision was a no brainer. But tell that to the heart or the little girl inside me that was happy to have someone to dance with and feel like prince charming had returned.
Letting go of the dream, is more difficult then letting go of the man. I have friends that encourage me to feel the feelings, the anger, denial, bargaining and ultimately acceptance.
We only dated a month. I thought to myself this grieving feels huge and realized it was about all the losses in my life not just him.
I took the time to smudge the house yesterday and asked for any negative energy to leave and held him in my thoughts for a good life journey.
I read some pages from a meditation book and then picked up my old favorite, How to Survive the Loss of a Love. I felt calm and peaceful.
Today I had some feelings that made me sad, and I picked up the Surviving book and opened to a page. There was a poem
First I have to get out of love with you
Second I have to remember
Dont fall until you see the whites of their lies
I smiled, God was talking to me again, comforting me, validating my decision.
It will take time. This last month, healthy boudaries were set, red flags were recognized, and esteemable acts continued, as I gratefully listened to those that care about me with an open heart.
The passing of the feelings of loss will move quickly. There was not a big investment since I was cautiously optimistic. However, the longing for someone to share my life with was awakened by my relationship and that will be my lesson.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Relationships
Relationships are difficult. The author, Scott M. Peck, has for the first line in one of his books "life is difficult" I understand those words. I also believe we create some of our own difficult situations.
I seem to handle life when alone with a positive attitude, most days. :-) I have moments where I would like someone to go to dinner with, cuddle or go dancing. Mostly, I feel I have a good balance in my life when alone; work, photography, friends etc.
Recently I began dating an old boyfriend again. I don't like who I become when dating. Maybe it's because we had a romantic relationship in the past. How do you go back to just being friends till you see if the romantic part could be rekindled? I feel romantic feelings, but the past makes me guarded. I was telling an old friend about the way I felt, her wise words to me were:
It seems like it would be easy to have a fun relationship as long as you don’t try to make the guy own your ideas. Everyone is entitled to their way of life even if it doesn’t agree with yours.
I loved that, I read it to him, he loved it. Ahhhh now the hard part, to practice it in my life on a daily basis.
It appears to me I am in "fall down seven times, get up eight" mode.
Living life on life's terms is not always easy, the rewards however are like new branches forming on an old tree. With time they will bloom and flower and maybe learning life lessons will be welcomed and not feared.
I seem to handle life when alone with a positive attitude, most days. :-) I have moments where I would like someone to go to dinner with, cuddle or go dancing. Mostly, I feel I have a good balance in my life when alone; work, photography, friends etc.
Recently I began dating an old boyfriend again. I don't like who I become when dating. Maybe it's because we had a romantic relationship in the past. How do you go back to just being friends till you see if the romantic part could be rekindled? I feel romantic feelings, but the past makes me guarded. I was telling an old friend about the way I felt, her wise words to me were:
It seems like it would be easy to have a fun relationship as long as you don’t try to make the guy own your ideas. Everyone is entitled to their way of life even if it doesn’t agree with yours.
I loved that, I read it to him, he loved it. Ahhhh now the hard part, to practice it in my life on a daily basis.
It appears to me I am in "fall down seven times, get up eight" mode.
Living life on life's terms is not always easy, the rewards however are like new branches forming on an old tree. With time they will bloom and flower and maybe learning life lessons will be welcomed and not feared.
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