Recently an old boyfiend called me. Asked me out for dinner and dancing. We had always enjoyed dancing together. I rearranged my schedule and met him at the place. It was a magical night. I had not had that much fun in a few years.
As I started to let my imagination run wild, a little voice in the back of my head told me....be careful. You know his moods can swing from day to day. Just stay in the moment.
The next day I was lost in the fantasy. He asking me if I thought we could try again. I said I am open to the possibilities
By the end of the week the roller coaster ride was daunting, from one day to the next. The last day we spoke the whole story had turned and suddenly my stomach was churning, I felt shell shocked and sad. He did send me an email saying please dont let us go! HELLO!!!!
I offered to be a dancing partner but made it clear, no romantic relationship. Which with my past histoy with him, I doubt he would accept for very long.
There are men that are misogynists. I suspect he is one. They woo you and make you feel special and then when you let your guard down, they pull the rug out from under you.
I am writing this because I want to cry today. Not for losing him, but for being reminded how wonderul it can be if you have someone special in your life. Someone trustworthy,consistent, caring and willing to be a friend in hopes a relationship may develop.
I have to remind myself I had a wonderful night. I learned that I have a desire I had not acknowledged in a long time.
I am grieving, I know it was only a week. But he was very good at sweeping me off my feet for those seven days! At least it wasn't months or years.
A friend asks me with love, "weren't you the one that always told me ""A leeopard never changes thier spots?"  Yep I did! Thank God I have people in my life that remind me.
No mater how old you are, keep your heart open to love.
Hope for the best, dont accept unacceptable behavior and above all know you are perfect just the way you are. Men are icing on the cake, NOT the cake.